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[Phenom]

Thinking.... why is this song stuck in my head >_< (Take me out)

[tempted]

thinking:

* that i'm tired. all day shopping is very tiring.
* and about all my new clothes that are so freakin cool, and look amazingly good on me.
* and omg the amount of money i spent today!!

[happy_doughnut]

I'm thinking: I can't wait until that certain something arrives in the mail. If my calculations are correct, it should arrive tomorrow. But wow, imagine if I got it today! I also can't wait for it to work. I'm so eager for it to just work! I have a strong feeling it will... yep. I can't wait!

I can't believe I burned my finger with the ashes. Oh, what a fucktard. It hurts.

Why do my moods keep fluctuating so drastically? A while ago I was all sad because the place where I went to didn't turn out to be what I expected. I feel like I got cheated out of money. =\

But alas! I have found another place... but I don't want to skip any more school... well, I do but I don't think I should. Hmm. If only I could *somehow* go today. Hmm... how, how...

Oh, my god... I can't believe the situation I am in again! This makes the what-869,769,485,684,583,449,298,953,236,455,186,999,24 4th time? GOD! But it's okay cause I know everything is going to work out just like I believe it will. AHAHAHAHAHA!

I'm going to go eat a pizza. And play a game before going home.

I smell. Thank goodness I have perfume.

I wonder how you are. Do you miss me? When will you come back? Soon, I hope!

I wonder if my mom is having a good day... I hope so. My index finger aches. YTF did I burn it?

Make-up! I'm running low... I need to go buy some. I wonder if you can smell my smell. Can you tell what I have been doing? I hope not! Where are you? I wonder if Cordy if going to bring the weed on Monday. Oh, man... that'll be funny. What people. I can't wait to see them! Will things be okay by Monday? When am I going to get that in the mail? I wonder how long it will take until they do it... and I also wonder how long it will take so that I can see it working. I hope not too long. I hope before the ...

/end

Who would like to live inside my head?

[Berserker]

I really like my new LaCoste-trainers, they're awfully white though...that'll never last long...wait...crap they're no longer completely white...oh well.

[Pu the Owl]

Isn't it annoying when somebody decides to put your things where you won't find them? Isn't it even more annoying when this somebody tells you he/she doesn't know what you are talking about?

[trunks69420]

^^yes it is.... my roomate moved my razors and my face has yet to see a shave



currently thinking... waking up still tired isnt fun... especially when you slept in and went to bed early

[tempted]

Thinking:

* looking for a hotel to go on vacations is a pain when the other 2 people going don't agree with you.
* i want that book so bad!!
* can't wait for tomorrow to go pick the new sofas.
* that pizza tasted horrible.
* it's a good idea to have a screen name that no one knows about.
* i'm relieved that i got blocked first, cause now i can block, delete and be done with that crap and not feel bad. i never thought it would get to this point, but oh well. enough is enough.
* maybe i should go to the hospital cause this pain in my chest isn't normal...but everyone is already sleeping and i don't wanna wake them up, and worry them, but i don't wanna go alone and have something really wrong going on and then have to call home and worry them even more.
* i miss carolina.

[merylsilverburg]

Thinking of/Paranoid of/Worried About/Depressed About/Angry About:

....the giant 1 1/2-inch wolf spiders that have been appearing every single night in our house. Every day...after getting home from exhausting restaurant work, I don't need to see those mutant spiders...every single bloody day...they're only appearing much more because winter is coming and they need a place to hide...

....why can't our lazy real estate agent just get off of her lazy ass and try to sell our house so we can get the money to buy a new house? I don't care if it's smaller or whatever just as long as it's away from a lake and giant spiders....

....how much I hate this house with all its broken pipes (cannot use my bathroom nor any water down here and cannot afford to get it fixed due to financial problems), moldy and musty basement smell, being so close to the damn lake which is why the area has more spiders than normal (water-source)....

....how much my sister and I should've listened to our mother when she said the damn house would be cursed because it started with the number 4 (an unlucky number in Asian cultures because saying the number 4 in Mandarin/Chinese is the same as saying "death")...

....the paper I have due next week...

....the 500 page novel I have to finish for class by the end of next week even though we are starting to read it only this Friday...

....how we are ever going to pay back all the people we owe money?

....that woman we owe money to is probably going to call in a few more days...

....why is that asstard I must call a "father" making our lives more miserable these days and refusing to help our situation more but instead making it worse?

....why is that horrendous woman so incredibly stupid and trashy when she thinks she's so smart and so fantastic? If she's so smart, then why does she have to ask for help for every single stupid little thing? Why does she play the "innocent, demure" role when we all know she's a heartless bitch? Why does she reprimand and look down upon people when she doesn't do things any better herself?

....Why is the above mentioned woman's equally trashy, lazy, half-wit, immature as hell 15 year old daughter even COMPLAINING about how horrible her life is when all she has to do is worry about school, after-school clubs, parties, birthdays and like, omigawd!! Shopping and movies!!! Like, omigaaaaawd, her life is sooooo rough!!! She absolutely cannot believe her parents are asking her to *gasp* work! OH and when she actually does get her lazy ass to work, she gets the liberty to just storm out (STORM!!) out whenever she *feels* like it or else just throw a tantrum. Oh wowwww....she's 15, wow, really mature...and her mother just spoils her like hell and this brat never has to suffer any consequences because, like, she's a teenager and she acts like EVERY teenager her age who possesses so much angst that they can distribute it to all the other 15 year olds in the world and still have plenty left over...but, like, isn't that what ALL teenagers do anyway, so she's being a normal person....yeah, yeah, her life is so rough, RIGHT...

....why, oh why, do the people in the little hick town our restaurant is located in feel like they are the most high-class, superior people on the earth? They are rednecks and hicks who do nothing all day but gossip about other people...wow, what class...

....what supplies do I need to organize for work tommorow?

....the allergies on my hands are getting worse due to the weather change in the hick town we're working in....cannot go a day without itching and scratching like crazy which is a real disruption while trying to wrap orders...

....when will I get sick because I'm most likely to become ill soon...

....when will things get better in my family's life?

....will my sister ever sign up for classes and be able to pass them with at least a C so she can at least get an Associate's Degree?

....when will we get the money and time to get my mother's eye fixed?

....why can't my mom just lighten up and not get stressed out so much? It's bad for her health but she never listens to me or my sister...

....why is it whenever I try to get started on writing a manga story, something goes wrong such as, oh, my computer breaking and now having to use my sister's and living in fear of destroying my sister's computer...

....I wish I could fly away somewhere far away...

....how I should shut-up now since people think I'm complaining for no reason...

[tempted]

thinking:

* 6 days late again!!
* I should go eat but i'm not hungry
* 14 pages and it's not even half finished yet.
*

Edit: my sister sucks at making tea

[happy_doughnut]

Thinking... thinking...

I sit here and stare at the screen, wondering where it is that I always go wrong. I just don't understand. I just don't understand.

How can life treat someone so poorly? I don't think this is fair. What have I done to desserve so much misery? Sometimes I think about it laugh; it's funny in a sad way, how life has the uncanny ability to bombard you with things that are too much to handle, causing you to break down, in turn making it all worse.

It all started last Thursday. Had I know, even a little bit, I would have acted differently. How can it be that, when I really do need a helping hand, it seems like no one is around. And how that person--the one that promised they would, is the first to leave.

I found out this week that my university dreams are going to be put on hold for a year. This is so unfair. I think and think, but I can't pinpoint where I have gone so wrong as to desserve all of this! Did I murder God in my past life, of what? Why do you hate me so much? I've never denied you, not have ever had spite or remorse for you, and yet you leave me like this? When I need a helping hand, you let loose the hounds so that they can chew me up more?

What is this? In my faith, where have I faltered so? If You are my safe haven, and are covered with blood walls which encircle the rampant nightmares, where can I go?

This is not fair! I have tried so hard and You know it! Somehow I have mustered the courage to keep going, and I have made it this far, only to have someone stop me in my tracks. No way, there's no way I can fix this. I tell my parents it will only be for a year, but in my heart I know that this year may quickly turn into two, three, four... never. I may never go back.

Do You enjoy this? First You take away someone so dear and then my dream; but why? Why?

Honors Program. Alpha Gamma Sigma Honors Society. Honors Newsletter Editor. Bullshit.

And for what? Cashier at Taco Bell?

Thanks. Thanks for putting obstacles in my life I cannot solve. Thank you so much. Thank you for stopping me dead in my tracks, without hopes, dreams, and even without my love. You're so wonderful. Just cut me in half with a thunderbolt, why don't you?

Your name doesn't even desserve to be capitalized anymore.

[trunks69420]

Originally Posted by happy_doughnut

Your name doesn't even desserve to be capitalized anymore.

i agree.
hope things can go better. everything gets aweful before it will get better... generic comment i know... but in my case.. its been true. as hard as the shit times can be.




currently thinking.. 3 days without booze.. i'm doing well.. well not 'no' booze.. but i havent been geting wasted or even going out to the bar.

[tempted]

thinking:

* who the hell gives names to storms?!?! seriously, what kind of name is VINCE?! who's idea was that?
* why is it that my country, especially this part (south), that almost never sees rain during the whole winter, is now in "storm danger zone"?!! Just the other day i was in the pool and now i have to lock myself inside the house, waiting for the "supposed" VINCE storm to come.
* how funny it is, this morning in the news they said it wasn't going to pass through here, late this afternoon, they changed that statement in to, " be careful with the strong winds and who lives by the coast (me!) should be careful with big waves as well" and 2 hours ago, they changed that into" keep all doors and windows closed! and it should be all over tomorrow morning."...now, wtf?!?!?! ...can they make up their minds already?!
* i gotta force myself to eat more, cause this losing weight again, is getting on my nerves. AGAIN! gain, lose, gain, lose. argh!!
* why do i feel like throwing up?!
* 20 pages now and counting.
*

[Piggle_humsy]

Thinking:
What has happened to Red? I haven't seen him online in ages...
What if my head pain is serious....
Why can't my dad win some money on the lottery.. even a small amount
Why am I always filled with such anger these days

[Daniel Legge]

Thinking why cant i get her out of my head.

[trunks69420]

Okay.. so i'm thinking how pumped i am i'm getting another new tattoo tommorow


Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh... pirate tattoo on my right arm.. wu tang baby


yes.

[Hylas]

Originally Posted by trunks69420

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh... pirate tattoo on my right arm.. wu tang baby

Wow, cool! Do you have a preview of the tattoo?

[trunks69420]

Originally Posted by Hylas

Wow, cool! Do you have a preview of the tattoo?

unfortunately i dont.. my friend matt from the golden lotus is designing it and giveing me a hell of a deal... hes building his portfolio more and cause its something he wanted to do.. he's doing a 300 dollar piece of art for 75 bucks.. i'm pretty pumped.

but i'll make sure and post tommorow night and let everyone know.. there will be pics on my myspace.

www.myspace.com/with_teeth

[trunks69420]

Okay double post.. but new pic is up.


see above post for link and such.

[Berserker]

Cool tat trunks!!! But where's the pirate?? Am I looking at the wrong pic?

Thinking: I'm getting sick and tired of the situation at work(again). Don't know how much longer I can take the dirty games everybody's playing till I snap and I either tell everyone to F&@^%#* off or just beat a few people to a bloody mess...
I hope when it gets that far it'll be the first option, but I'm affraid it can might as well be the second... I just can take that kind of backstabbing, lowlife behaviour for a certain amount and than it gets inside my head and I am f%#@*&# accident waiting to happen...

[tempted]

food!!! that's what i'm thinking about right now, just food. probably because i didn't eat all day and now i'm hungry...really hungry! so why did i just went downstairs and nothing of what's in the kitchen seemed tempting?!