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[tempted]

Originally Posted by TtTackler

Its no way your fault. There are so many variables that are happening all at once that you can't blame yourself. All you did was ask them over for lunch, how were you supposed to know they would get in an accident? If there is ANYONE to blame, is the person who caused the accident. Nothing else.

I only saw this now..but thanks..i know it wasn't my fault but having my own mother telling me what she did ..didn't really help..and there was no one else involved in the accident it was raining, actually pouring and my brother lost control of the car..it hit a wall and rolled over a few meters so they ended up upside down on the road, luckily none of them has a single bruise or anything...and i was worried as hell about my niece but she didn't even cry or got scared..i was told that the only thing she said, was to her mom to get her out of the car, something like "mommy get Conina out" ,that actually made me laugh a bit, to know she's so strong ..but anyways thanks


[off-topic: great sig Piggle and i love that quote from Tomb Raider ]

[tempted]

2.51am

Once again and it's late and i'm still up, like usual for the past 2/3 weeks, i just can't sleep at "normal" hours..my mind is a mess as always lately..nothing seems to makes sense to me anymore, like there's nothing really wrong going on, but my brain just doesn't seem to be doing his job like it should and like it used to do, does anyone reached a point in his/hers life where you just feel completely lost?! There's where i am or how i am feeling right now, there's so much i want to do, and that i'm trying to do, but for some reason i feel like there's always something blocking my way, or maybe it just seems like it because i'm not as strong as i always tell myself that i am, maybe i'm just illuding myself in thinking that i can achieve all the things i want, when maybe i really can't, or maybe i'm just not trying hard enough, so everything seems much harder than it really is. This is why i can't stand these nights without sleeping, because i just keep thinking, and thinking and analizing everything that's around me, and trying to come up with more solutions to get the life that i want, and that i think i deserve, and then there's the life of the people that in someways depend of me, so that's more issues troubling my mind, i just cannot stop thinking.
My brain just doesn't want to stop..if i do this, then that might happen; and if i do that, then this might happen, that would be how my brain has been working for the last 2/3 weeks, i hope i don't get insane, that is if i'm not already .
Ok now... enough of this...i'm going to try and SLEEP like any other normal human being would be doing at this hour..or at least the majority of them..lol..
Anyways if none of this makes sense to you, i'm sorry, just ignore me..lol

g-night

[happy_doughnut]

1.20 AM

Eh, I guess it's not too late. Just up... sitting here finishing homework. I thought there were two assignments to turn in tomorrow, but I checked the date for one and it says it's not due till next Monday. Argh! I can swear I heard him say it was due tomorrow. Oh, well... didn't do it, anyway.

Guess what, guys? I failed my English mid term. *sigh* I did prepare, not much, but I did. Thankfully the prof. cut me some slack and let me retake it. Why? After I told him what had happened the evening before, he understood and gave me another chance. I am very happy. I must study again and do well this next time. I think I'll take it next Tuesday, and take the final Thursday. Eek!

Anyway, christmas is comming and there is so much I need to do! So many presents to buy and what not... *sigh*.

I'm kinda tired. Typically, it's no unusual for me to go to bed till about 2 am +. I usually end up getting sleepy like at around 3 am, and then go to bed to wake up at around 7 am. This may seem like a little to some, but I'm okay with it. I guess I've grown used to it, ya know? But anyway, what's weird is that lately, for the past week or so, I've been getting very, very tired. For the past few days, maybe like 4 or 5, I've been going to be at around 11 pm! This is highly unusual for me! I mean, even though I'm tired and what have you, I'm not sleepy, so I just end up lying in my bed for a few hours. But now I just hit the bed an immediately fall asleep! Also, I've lost about 4lbs. in a week. I know it doesn't sound like much, but it's weird for me. I usually always weigh the same. Even if I eat a lot or a little in a given period of time, I remain at the same weight. The only times in which I rapidly loose weight is when I *cough* excersize (I can't even spell it ). But I haven't been doing that at all! I have been eating less, I think. I'm not doing it on purpose, either... I'm just not hungry. I know this makes sense, but it doesn't make much sense to me because like I said, regardless of eating patterns, my weight remains the same.

Maybe it's all because I'm highly paranoid right now. How can I say this? Argh! I don't even want to. *is embarrased* Let's just say that I have his HUGE black cloud over my head! An enormous worry that, were it to become a reality, I literally would go insane. I know this is all my fault, which makes me feel worse. Thinking about what I would have to do if this worry were to evolve into a reality makes me so anxious. I've read that the more I worry about this, the worse it gets. But, I mean, hello! How can anyone NOT worry?!?! I'm so terrible eager for the proof that would negate this to come, but it's no where in sight! In turn, the proof not showing up makes my dreaded suspicion worse!

And you know what's weirder? That usually, big problems like these keep me from sleeping, but not now. I can easily go to sleep! Luckily, I'm starting to subside a little. I'm trying to think, "it will come. just give it some time."

Oh, god. I'm so going to burst. With this magnanimously huge problem on my head. Gearing up for a mid term again, then preparing for finals, all while turning in a massive research paper on wednesday, AND while thinking about christmas and all the frenzy it entails... eek!

*mena collapses

[Redpyramidhead]

*Red collapses

Anybody else want to collapse?


_RED_ stuff

[Urahara Kisuke]

Originally Posted by Redpyramidhead

*Red collapses

Anybody else want to collapse?


_RED_ stuff

I want to collapse. So I think I will. Good night everyone.

[Pu the Owl]

Stains. Untidy. Shouting. Signals. Collision. Ugly.

I'm tired. In need of new batteries. Spent yesterday sleeping. I felt nauseated. Today discussions, delays, sick felines, people not listening. And synthetic sheeps in a book. The best thing, without any doubt.

Too much red decorations and golden lights. It hurts the eye.

[DSgamer]

yay its 2:40AM and i finaly get to post here (I always wanted to post here because it seems like a mega bad arse thread)

[Mushu4eva]

its only 1am here. Well im not bored yet but i wanted to post here as well but now i got jack to say........oh well nice place. gona go watch some tv.
peace out

[DSgamer]

its 1:45 and im really bored and i have nothing to. im talking to my cool friend mena and my friend jack from school, me and jack are talkin bout wat he's gona do jan 14th at the battle of bands, and me n mena are talkin about posting here :-D if you want to be my late night buddy IM me on AIM sn=silentbob734

[happy_doughnut]

Ah, 1.53 AM

It's Saturday night, or Sunday morning - take your pick... and I'm sitting here, doing nothing.

I was talking to a good friend from my HS scene a while ago, and I shared some good laughs with her. I was also talking to gamer not too long ago... just simple how are ya chit chat.

I'm listening to a song titled Dying Slowly by the Tindersticks. For some reason, I almost always find myself listening to this song when I'm sad.

So many worthless memories. So much to do. So much to think. So little to feel. Dreams of hopes that will never come. White dreams conceal the black and red nightmares. The youth quickly is whisking by...

Each day, I feel further and further away from my dreams. I think it's time to let go.

[Beretta55]

5:15 AM

January is a bad month for me, since I always get a cold and I do mean ALWAYS. I didn’t sleep much in the first place and this just adds on to it. I've just been surfing the net the past few hours complete with a box full of Kleenex and a trash can, damn cold.
Chance’s are I’ll fall asleep when 6 or 7 AM rolls around, till then im not sleeping a wink.

[Infernal Mass]

Originally Posted by happy_doughnut

Ah, 1.53 AM

It's Saturday night, or Sunday morning - take your pick... and I'm sitting here, doing nothing.

I was talking to a good friend from my HS scene a while ago, and I shared some good laughs with her. I was also talking to gamer not too long ago... just simple how are ya chit chat.

I'm listening to a song titled Dying Slowly by the Tindersticks. For some reason, I almost always find myself listening to this song when I'm sad.

So many worthless memories. So much to do. So much to think. So little to feel. Dreams of hopes that will never come. White dreams conceal the black and red nightmares. The youth quickly is whisking by...

Each day, I feel further and further away from my dreams. I think it's time to let go.

cheer up mena..life has you in a headlock, just bite it back in the ass.,,or actually that's sorta gross..bite it in the arm instead!

yes..with your sharp little gremlin teeth


5am day 4 of this flu.

When I catch the flu, I try to think where or better yet who was responsible for this crime. I usually trace it to the source pretty fast too, so that i can burn that place down. This time though it's not the same because it was my own fault..very frustrating!

I have a strong immune system too, but this cold is owning me. That's why i'm trying to quarantine myself from the rest of the household, because i know that if I'm feeling this bad; and if they happen to catch this flu..then this place will look like hell with a bunch of ugly ass zombies walking around.

so that's my good deed for the whole year already.

[Piggle_humsy]

Hiya All Non-Sleepers!

It's 2:29am.. Not likely to go to sleep anytime soon seeing as I only got up at 8pm today.. terrible night..couldn't sleep..couldn't stop coughing my lungs up.. finally fell asleep at around 11am.. but it wasn't restful sleep..and they say even if you have 15 hours of sleep..if it's not good solid sleep, it's like you never had any sleep at all!
And I can only count one time in the past few months that I have actually had a good solid sleep
Oh well that's me done for now.

Piggle
x x x x

[tempted]

4.08 am
My night is being kindof interesting...i went to bed at around 1am...fell a sleep at around 2am...and my dog woke me up at around 3.40 to take him out...now if for one i do thank the little shit for waking me up, cause i was having a really unpleasant dream...on the other, i'm about to punch him cause it's freaking cold outside .... so advice to you people...never get a dog!!They force you to do the stupidest things at the most weirdest hours ... g-night everyone!

[squirms_619]

hey this is the first time i've posted here at least i think so hehe but anyway im really bored and have school tomarrow which sucks...alot...so I would just like to tell you all a little about my self I am 17 and am a senior in high school, I really only like one sport which is soccer but don't get to play to much, I love art and love playing video games I plan to major in multi media technology and computer programming when i get to college which will help me on my way to designing my own video games one day(i think i had said this in another post, oh well). anyway i love to read sci-fi books and watch action/adventure/anime/sci-fi movies and t.v. shows. I also love to work out but don't get around to it much since i am pretty lazy but I believe that i am still pretty fit so i'm perfectly happy with being lazy. lets see.... i dont really have to much of an exciting life since i live in the middle of nowhere grated i do drive but gas prices are crazy and i'm to cheap, which brings me to my next topic, I have to jobs but am currently only working one cause i have been laid off for awhile with one which is fine, i now have time to do homework. I work at a country store and a bakery(bakery is the one i still work at for the moment) I plan on quiting the bakery though because its pretty disgusting the owner never claens much and so when i'm there i clean the entire time. well i have money to spend anyway. I can't think of much else to say and i'm getting sleepy now so i will go to bed good night everyone and i hope that i didn't bore you to much with this. well bye and good night again.

[squirms_619]

hehe one last thing I love dogs and they do make you do crazy things at crazy hours but that is what makes them fun.

[Piggle_humsy]

6:28am.. Just popped in to say hi.
Yes my dogs drive me nuts most of the time... especially the boy Louis.. (I've put pics of him up b4) these past few days he's been non stop whining.. and he wont leave Hollie alone(our female dog..his ex-girlfriend, as she now seems to hate him.) I think he wants to get him some lovin'..but after Hollie having 7 pups she's gone right off him..but then that's fair enough!

Oh Man My dogs just done the hugest fart...I'm off to pass out...

Piggle
x x x x

[tempted]

What happened to this thread?

oh well anyways...it's now 3.54 am (Lisbon time), i was sleeping, but i was having a really strange dream that made me wake up, and no i won't tell what it was about, i couldn't even if i tried...it just involved 2 people i care about too much, my niece and nevermind the other...somehow one turned into the other, argh so confusing...plus i forgot to turn of the monitor and the speakers of my pc...and i heard a little ring-ring...lol...it was mr Red iming me...so now he thinks he woke me up...lol...and my dog just stole my bed again, damn dog!! So i'm not sleepy anymore, and i don't have a bed...really interesting isn't it??
G-night everyone!!

[Aubrey McFatum]

Today's been pretty bad. I don't usually like to go around posting rants, but I must now. I broke up with my girlfriend some time ago, for futile reasons IMO, but I thought I still had chances to bring her back one of these days. Today I saw she found a replacement, and old friend from high school. He knew I had this story with this girl, he knew I was still hoping to be back with her. He didn't care and now they are together. They said "Hi!" to me when we met, like if I was only one of their friends, like nothing ever happened between us. They knew... and still know, but you know how these things go. When they don't care, they really don't , and in the end you're the only one to be left alone and forgotten. Ok... too much ranting. I must have another glass of water. Damn salmon... never again trying to suffocate a delusion with some apparently special dinner. Better have a huge dose of chocolate, especially if you have a lot of it thanks to Easter celebrations...

[trunks69420]

its 12:43 EST. i am supposed to be getting rest.. but.. instead i drank two cappucinos... and now i'm wired.. but tired. yeah. so i'm enjoying my two new t shirts.. 'the killers' and a new NIN shirt.. word motha fatha. yeah. yesterday was really super shit tastic though. i was up all night. my 12 year old sister was pretending she was 20.. talking to a 23 year old guy.. talking about F-ing him and sucking him off... and my mother has no control over her so i had to deal with it... wow.. started off the day really shitty... then.. this 'girl' i saw last weekend or whenever was supposedly 'really into me'.. so we were to hang out on tuesday there... and well.. i show up and her 'friend' and her little brother were there... shit. so have a shitty day at the park w/ those three.. then come home to talk to her about what was up... come to find out she 'kindof' likes me but is in love with someone else... so. just when i was ready to try a new 'relationship' i got fucked out of it cause of some stupid shit... was less than happy... i was thinking of calling my old 'friends' and gettin high... did i? .. no. i am much stronger than that.. the 23rd i celebrated 4 months of being clean from weed n shit. so i wasnt gonna go back to that over one shitty day. so i didnt. but i didnt even drink either. and anyone who knows me a little.. thats how i deal with my problems... but i didnt even sink back to that. i just stuck it out. and got better by thinking, and figuring out what was really best. so yeah. today was a decent day.. watched the movie closer... really fucked up.. but jude law did a great job in it. and natalie portman was hot. werd.

aubrey. i know exactly what you are goin through.. and i went through it personally.. you handled it better than i did. the kid was one of my best friends and he knew full well waht i thought and how much i still 'loved' that girl... i didnt walk away.. i beat the living shit out of him. well not as bad as i could have.. but then i left him out of my life for 3 months or so.. or somethign like that.. i'm too tired to remember the details.. but needless to say without the story. i feel your pain. keep strong. werd. peace