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I am best online, That is the only real way I can talk to people and be myself, I suck on the phone, I cant even talk to my best mates or relatives on the phone, I get all nervous, run out of things to say and end up panicking. I also suck in person aswell, this would be down to my serious lack of confidence, Alot of people dont know this but I sometimes have trouble even leaving my house, I have what is known as a Social phobia which means I panic in new surroundings and around unfamiliar people, this is mostly down to a life of bullying (so any bullies out there think b4 u act!) , because when people put you down all your life you end up thinking your not actually worth anything, ok gone off subject... well yes I have trouble with people, online I am a totally different person as I dont have all the worries that come with talking to people in person, I dont have to look them in the eye, silences arent uncomfortable, I dont have to worry about speaking loud enough to be heard which is a real problem for me, I normally just get spoken over or go unoticed, Im just me online and offline thats goes away because I am worrying about everything, what to say, how to fill silences, what people are thinking of me, how stupid I look or sound.
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Man that really sucks. I feel really sad now because I can relate to what your saying as I used to be bullied but I kind of got off lightly and worked my way out of it. All I can say is if you're being bullied, talk.
But I used to be kinda like u in the way I had no confidence but since I mvoed on I just regained my confidence bit by bit and became more trusting to people th friendlier they became. Anyways, all I can really say is try to move on and forget the past. Bullies are ignorant pigs with no brains in the first place.