I am best online, That is the only real way I can talk to people and be myself, I suck on the phone, I cant even talk to my best mates or relatives on the phone, I get all nervous, run out of things to say and end up panicking. I also suck in person aswell, this would be down to my serious lack of confidence, Alot of people dont know this but I sometimes have trouble even leaving my house, I have what is known as a Social phobia which means I panic in new surroundings and around unfamiliar people, this is mostly down to a life of bullying (so any bullies out there think b4 u act!) , because when people put you down all your life you end up thinking your not actually worth anything, ok gone off subject... well yes I have trouble with people, online I am a totally different person as I dont have all the worries that come with talking to people in person, I dont have to look them in the eye, silences arent uncomfortable, I dont have to worry about speaking loud enough to be heard which is a real problem for me, I normally just get spoken over or go unoticed, Im just me online and offline thats goes away because I am worrying about everything, what to say, how to fill silences, what people are thinking of me, how stupid I look or sound.
So long story short: I have a hard time expressing myself when there's actual people around.
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