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I understand were everyone is coming from no I am not trying to make him jealous its just when someone leaves someone else with out a reason you begin to pick your flaws and blame it on them and since i have a big self esteem issue I thought it was because i did not look good enough so I just decided to post my pic for some other oppinions from people who have never seen me I am perfectly content with myself as a person i think i have a great personality but its been to my experience that if you did not look at least a little good you are going to get no were maybe I am just surronded by a$$ hoe$ but thats been my life now can you really blame me for having self esteem issues anyways I was just chillin at yuna's and she snapped it and it looked good so I posted it besides i had to give you guys the best pic I could since you all waited so patiently
Please do not be mistaken this has nothing to due with Neomarik and frankly I am getting tired of his name I will not be able to move on from this for the simple fact that i can not do what we did or share what we had with any one else because i will always feel as if I am betraying him its werid i understand Gadzooks what you are saying and you are intitled to your own oppionion , but you do not know me personally or the way my mind and heart works so to say that you can relate and compare this to ordinary teenage love scenario is kinda shallow because this goes way beyond that. I am not trying to snap or put anyone down. As for degrading like I said that pic was just snapped while we were playing with yunadivas new web cam and since it came out so well she suggested i post it and I said sure why the hell not this is not usually me I am very shy but lately I have not cared to much about what others think of me I have been more in this I do not give a shit mood. Plus in all honesty I really liked the pic I always lived my life by the rules always being told what to do and what not to do and I listin and took everyones judgement tooo personaly thats another reason i do not like myself if the picture is going to start some sexiest debate about degrading women or how its unappropriate then I'll just take another one the last thing i want is someone to be insulted or feel like it is degrading, but if no one else has a prob with it then i do not either. The pic was in pure fun and i really hate the fact that everyone automaticlly thinks it has something to do with my break up, or jealousy, or some hateful sceem for revenge because believe me Neomarik is as happy as a lark now so this pic won't faze him plus i do not hate him and wish him all the best. This pic will probably be tooken down sunday anyways because its not permanate i have bad timing maybe i should have waited a few more months b4 i posted it whatever. Thanxs again everyone for your input and advice and I hope this clears some things up
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