You guyz! I don't know what to say. Your birthday wishes are all so much more than I could have asked for and they have helped that much more to make this one of the best birthdays I've ever had. I know it sounds weird, but this in a big way is an important puzzle peice to me starting off another year of my life in good spirits. Just by reading the posts in this thread!
This past year I have changed a lot in many ways. I'm still the same person that I love to be and at the same time I can say that more now than I could before. I love who I am and I feel productive and capable of special things that are my talents that I am allowed to be proud of. Most importantly, I'm moving forward in making my dreams come true. The ones that involve enjoying my talents in life for a living. I am on that road now more or less and I know now that I can do it.
Feeling like a part of this community and the friends I've met here have done its part with helping me get this far in many ways so I would like to thank everybody here who puts up with me
PEACE
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