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Redpyramidhead · Jun 20th, 2003, 10:16 AM

No, I am not content wiht my life right now at all. And I fear I will spend most of it seeking that contentment. Isn't that the curse of people like me? Can I break it by accepting certain things? Let me tell you, though, it is hard to accept things like these. The world is always a worse place than you think and only better once in a great while in very special places..................damn this question...As if I don't hear it enough in my head every minute of every f**king day. Sometimes I feel like i know something subconsciously. Something like I'm not going to live a comparatively long time. People tell me I talk as though I'm running out of time a lot and look at me and say "what's the matter with you? You're only 22!!" And I would have to agree, that is very young, but it doesn't change the way I feel inside.

Btw, I like to help people out, too, but it takes a while to get good at it. To say that you are a natural at giving advice is pretty arrogant...especially if you are so young. No matter what you've gone through, you are not old enough to sort it out what it means yet in your mind much less other people's problems in their mind. And even though I am probably older than you, I am still too young to help people my age with really experienced advice. THere is only so much you can do, like be there for somebody and listen.

Rant rant rant rant rant rant..........

_RED_ stuff

Jun 20th, 2003, 10:16 AM	#18
Redpyramidhead pazparacolombia Joined: Sep 2002 Location: Restless dreams... Age: 45 Posts: 2,002	No, I am not content wiht my life right now at all. And I fear I will spend most of it seeking that contentment. Isn't that the curse of people like me? Can I break it by accepting certain things? Let me tell you, though, it is hard to accept things like these. The world is always a worse place than you think and only better once in a great while in very special places..................damn this question...As if I don't hear it enough in my head every minute of every f**king day. Sometimes I feel like i know something subconsciously. Something like I'm not going to live a comparatively long time. People tell me I talk as though I'm running out of time a lot and look at me and say "what's the matter with you? You're only 22!!" And I would have to agree, that is very young, but it doesn't change the way I feel inside. Btw, I like to help people out, too, but it takes a while to get good at it. To say that you are a natural at giving advice is pretty arrogant...especially if you are so young. No matter what you've gone through, you are not old enough to sort it out what it means yet in your mind much less other people's problems in their mind. And even though I am probably older than you, I am still too young to help people my age with really experienced advice. THere is only so much you can do, like be there for somebody and listen. Rant rant rant rant rant rant.......... _RED_ stuff __________________ "..loathsome laughing, mixed with such a cry as no man has heard save for in the phlegathon of unrelatable nightmares; a cry wherein reverberated the horror and anguish of a haunted lifetime packed into one atrocious moment..."