[merylsilverburg]

This is becoming bad.....I didn't mean for this thread to get out hand like this....

And Makg...what you said that I'm "Negative to an extreme"...I guess just from what our conversations have been, you would think that...and it's true, I'm not going to lie. I am pretty damn negative about myself, but I didn't choose to be negative. The torment of people around me, teasing me for the way I look (since I'm Asian and Asians weren't accepted in the past when I was a kid), backstabbing me, spreading rumors about me....it made me feel that there was something ultimately wrong with me, otherwise why would all these things happen to me so much? And with the "pressure of being perfect", if I did one thing wrong, I was yelled at....kids make mistakes, but my parents expected me to already know all the things an adult does. So, that pressured me into "maturing too fast" and that's why I'm so different from everyone and more "restricted". You'd probably still won't understand after this, but I guess I can't make you understand.