[MakgSnake]

Originally posted by merylsilverburg

I've been diagnosed with a mild depression. I went to the doctor today because I wasn't feeling well, and he went off and talked to my sister, saying that I do have a slight depression. I've been getting ill for a long time (ever since freshman year) and missing a lot of school....and everytime I go to him, he always asks if I'm stressed. I am stressed out, but I brushed it off because I usually can handle it. Well, it got to that point where I am actually a very healthy person, but because of my depression, I've been getting sick more and more and feeling more stressed than normal. So, he prescribed me anti-depressant.
I always knew I was depressed, but I always kinda denied it. What he said was the way I talk (very monotone, but I didn't realize it was from depression) and the way...that there's just something not right with me. Like...he said I'm supposed to be a teenager, but there seems to be an unsettling cloud over me that it's just doesn't feel right. Like I'm never at ease; always stressed out. So, that's when he suspected. And now, I have a choice whether or not to take the anti-depressant. Now, I don't know what to do.

I know I wouldn't be a great help or even any help at all. But I think its because of how you are. CHANGE yourself. You are sooooo freaking negative about yourself. I mean this is too much. You are negative, and negativity brings depression to one self. You dont need no medicine or any tablets like that. You are the cure. In school you "THINK" if you say something would be said against you in a weird manner. You have to change yourself. (Now I get a feeling that you'll say the first thing is "I cant change myself" and stuff like that) Thats the first step of Negativity. Its something not nice. Like I said, I may not be helping you at all here. But I am saying all this just cause I care........simple. (Even if it doesn't sound like it). Its your fault.