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i shall be honest (rar !) and not for pity, but because it gives you an insight into who i am, and i'm not always forthcoming or indeed here all that often, but yes. anyway, i ramble.
i've been depressed. it all starts from school, growing up, change, family issues. key moments when you stay strong or break.
i dallied with misery and continuing for a time. but then you break, depression corrodes a person, i started to hurt so much inside i'd harm myself to prove a vain point with the battle of my psyche. so yes, now i have the scars on my arms. i'm 19, i have marks made on my arms near weekly since being 16, 17 ,18. it hurts me in my happier moments to know i cursed my life so.
yet eventually it gets worse, something breaks. hello options. i started to hate everything around me, blame myself for the world and i started to starve myself and my weight went straight down. panic time. after a while of nearly fainting, seeing stars and hallucinating i got better, happier. changes come and go.
just i made so many mistakes in not dealing with my depression, keeping it all bottled up, so please sort it out if you feel low and it doesn't go away.
i don't mean to sound pretentious or preachy. just trying to advise i guess.
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