Once again I appreciate your attention guys. You are all such nice people. What Fortune said is right, that girl does not necessarily to be abad girl or anything. I don't hate her or anything, though. She was right, besides, she is 4 years older than I am. She definitely had powerful reasons. But, moreover... I was drunk last night, and right now i feel absolutely different from what I felt last night. I actually feel grateful that nothing happened. As you have all said it, it's best if it happens with someone special. Tat's how I want it to happen. It's just... that I am not myself when I get drunk
(probably no one is)
Again, and again, I am gratefull with you all. Even if you are not present you mkae me feel not alone
I'm feeling much more better right now, too ^_^