Hey everyone, yeah I did kind of just hide away again, but I did want to take time to think over things more and at other times just do something else like playing a videogame to take my mind off things. Getting my three wisdom teeth left taken out on Monday also added to me not being around, once you take enough pain medication you tend to sleep a lot just to make the pain go away.
I wanted to thank everyone for their words, none of you should ever feel your words do very little, and they really mean a lot to me. I don't really have very many friends in real life and any real sense of belonging in general other then this place so your words mean a lot. Things have gotten better, my mom hasn't gambled in weeks and the only time she has is when it crosses with her business. Her business makes her go very many places to recruit more people into her Arbonne business, sometimes she recruits people for Arbonne at a casino and last week she went to a company meeting in Las Vegas so expecting her not to gamble was stupid. Even then she gambled very little and is getting better. I still have some lingering feelings but I'm all things considered "normal" right now, things are finally in a state of normal, something this house hasn't seen for three years.
I don't know if worse things are to come, because if they are then I'll just have to take them since I have no real way of escaping this house. Being home schooled and not having a driver license makes me stuck here, and that means dealing when they are at their worst. But things have calmed down and I'm not angry as much. I'll probably still have that feeling linger within me for a while but that doesn't get in the way knowing I need to help my mother through this, which I have done from the start and will continue to do so.
So in conclusion, I'm okay and I'm doing fine. Again thank you for your words everyone they really do mean a lot to me.
