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Hey brother,
Your situation is way bigger than posting in any forum, even one as cool as this one.
Life is full of mysery, and those shitstorms you speak of usually come in stacks, just like it happened to you and your mom.
That change that you speak of, about yourself, you will see that it will be for a greater good in the end. Rough experiences are what make you grow as a person, going through shit and then later laughing at it after you surpassed it will show you that you are not a boy any longer, but a man.
All I can tell you about your mom is that her issues are deeper than her force of will. Do not frustrate on the repeated acts that disappoint you, although this certainly is some tough shit for you, it's probably much worse for her.
Loco, remember that everyone has issues, we are all human, we all make mistakes, and we all are bound to be affected by tragedy, that is how this freakin life is, but also like you mentioned, this bs has made you get out of your comfort zone, and only when you move out of that comfort zone is when you get better at anything, if you are comfortable where you're at it means you are not growing and you are not advancing, this applies to any aspect of life.
I do not pray to a Patriarchical God like I used to when I was younger, but I will keep you and your family in my own way of prayer. I really wish you and yours the best, be strong and remember to stand by your loved ones as your support is probably the best they could ever ask for. And no matter the outcome, remember, it will only make you a wiser, a stronger, a better person.
Best,
Frozen.
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