Thanks a lot Cannibal. As i am in a bad situation right now, it is good to know that there are people out there going through the same things. A couple of months ago, suicide was a good idea. I wouldnt use the gun(didnt want to ruin my pretty face), i tried hanging, smothering, and other stupid crap. Then i finally realized it wasnt worth it, and went on to living. Now the thing that really keeps me going is the women and other things of that order. GTA3 helps release a lot of stress too, thank god For PS2!! Anyways, i know i shouldnt completely abandon my faith, i still go to church every sunday, and am starting to get back into the swing of things. Thanx a lot for the encouragement CC.