[Redpyramidhead]

What you had, imo, was indeed an epiphany. Epiphanies can be both small and more profound. Either way, I think the lesson that you learned is also part of a bigger realization that will come to you in time. It may even be something you already know deep inside about life and how to cope, but you have not come to realize it completely consciously yet. It's just a matter of connecting the dots from past experiences and what you already know. That's basically what an ephiphany is. What you realized:

It was just like "I don't care what people think im living my life for myself at long last".

Is I think a very common thing to realize as people grow up and mature as they learn to deal with life's hardships. As you start to leave adolescence behind, things start to become "more of the norm" to you one's self and they realize they can maintain their sanity by keeping their eye on what's more important and not using all or nothing thinking so much. So, basically what I am saying is, I think you are growing up man. That's a good thing, obviously. It's not something that you don't have to worry about being sure whether it will last or not, because as long as you keep realizing things like this in life and keep maturing... a lot of the time you can atleast keep up with the amount of stress you have to deal with in life. It doesn't get easier, but at the same time it does... if that makes any sense.

So, the point is, always remember when you come to a realization like this. It is always important in life and part of a larger spiritual journery as you grow into yourself in life while you are able to make it through all of its hardships... each time making you stronger.

OK, I think that's it for now... but epiphanies are important... so I had to go on a bit about it... heh.

PEACE


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