[merylsilverburg]

Originally Posted by Panuru

Well, I understand you hate this person so much for all the reasons you explained in your posts, but seriously, all this hatred will hurt yourself, not her. I think this kind of persons can't be "touched" with any pranks or whatever you plan to do to teach them a lesson. I doubt even punching them in the face could really harm them... I mean I'm afraid that even the punching will end harming yourself, making you feel more furious than ever... all this just for what? For a very little piece of satisfaction. I don't think you'll feel as happy as you were expecting after causing her some kind of trouble. Probably the person we are talking about will forget everything after a mere couple of hours and you'll be the one left with a bitter taste in your mouth.

Well, the funny thing about me is that I know perfectly well the anger that I'm feeling/felt is doing more harm to me than her...I know this because it's happened before in the past with other annoying people; while they are living happily being their Godly annoying selves, I'm always the one stewing in anger with my blood boiling everytime I see or think about them (and whenever I do that, all the past hateful memories of them come rushing back making me even angrier than before). I hate them for who they are...and in all my rage, I'm harming myself, making myself stressed, depressed, angry and more...which, yes, makes me the stupid one, I'm aware of this. Fortunately, though, I have managed to let some of these things go and I will eventually forget with time but it's only because of my awful temper and my supreme high morals of what's right/just or what's wrong/injust that gets me all flared up. I thank you for your concern, if what you said above is meant to be out of concern.

Originally Posted by Panuru

I am sorry for you, for all the rage you are experiencing, but, don't take this as a form of criticism, use a bit of common sense whenever you feel mad at her. Does she really count (ok, in negative) so much for you? So much that you can let her make you so upset everyday? So much to let her ruin your mood all the time? I'm not saying you must learn to like or accept her, but I recommend for your own sake to not be so angered thanks to her silly behaviour or her selfishness. Best thing is treat her in the most cold way, don't show sympathy, but don't get frustrated either, 'cause I doubt she will really notice and understand. In the best case she will only use your anger against you with others.

Again, I knew this even way back in July when she started coming over everyday...I knew it's pointless to show any sort of emotion towards her otherwise she'll purposely try to "get my goat" if you will. Which is why I merely forced a laugh when she tried to attack me with anti-Japan/Japanese remarks. Of course, as I said above, if my mother, my sister, and I never had to be associated with her scumbag self or her scumbag mother ever again, I wouldn't give another thought to her and eventually let karma do its will. But, as I said earlier, because my "father" is also a scumbag himself, he loves those two (he loves all evil people, in a nutshell) and he is easily brainwashed because he's so fucking pathetic and evil, so he is co-conspiracing with them and siding with them to try to bring us (my mother, sister, and myself) down, so they are constantly in our lives, even though they aren't physically there. This is a war between my mother, sister, and myself against these two bitches and my "father." So, my anger at the brat and her mom isn't entirely because she bothered my sister and I for the bulk of the summer, but it runs a bit more deeper than that. I just want to get a little bit of my own back at her, personally, until the real terrible situations arises. That's all. This is why I wanted to just do this small prank to get, yes, some satisfaction. Of course, the opportunity has passed so I will eventually let it go but not too easily.