[merylsilverburg]

Thinking of/Paranoid of/Worried About/Depressed About/Angry About:

....the giant 1 1/2-inch wolf spiders that have been appearing every single night in our house. Every day...after getting home from exhausting restaurant work, I don't need to see those mutant spiders...every single bloody day...they're only appearing much more because winter is coming and they need a place to hide...

....why can't our lazy real estate agent just get off of her lazy ass and try to sell our house so we can get the money to buy a new house? I don't care if it's smaller or whatever just as long as it's away from a lake and giant spiders....

....how much I hate this house with all its broken pipes (cannot use my bathroom nor any water down here and cannot afford to get it fixed due to financial problems), moldy and musty basement smell, being so close to the damn lake which is why the area has more spiders than normal (water-source)....

....how much my sister and I should've listened to our mother when she said the damn house would be cursed because it started with the number 4 (an unlucky number in Asian cultures because saying the number 4 in Mandarin/Chinese is the same as saying "death")...

....the paper I have due next week...

....the 500 page novel I have to finish for class by the end of next week even though we are starting to read it only this Friday...

....how we are ever going to pay back all the people we owe money?

....that woman we owe money to is probably going to call in a few more days...

....why is that asstard I must call a "father" making our lives more miserable these days and refusing to help our situation more but instead making it worse?

....why is that horrendous woman so incredibly stupid and trashy when she thinks she's so smart and so fantastic? If she's so smart, then why does she have to ask for help for every single stupid little thing? Why does she play the "innocent, demure" role when we all know she's a heartless bitch? Why does she reprimand and look down upon people when she doesn't do things any better herself?

....Why is the above mentioned woman's equally trashy, lazy, half-wit, immature as hell 15 year old daughter even COMPLAINING about how horrible her life is when all she has to do is worry about school, after-school clubs, parties, birthdays and like, omigawd!! Shopping and movies!!! Like, omigaaaaawd, her life is sooooo rough!!! She absolutely cannot believe her parents are asking her to *gasp* work! OH and when she actually does get her lazy ass to work, she gets the liberty to just storm out (STORM!!) out whenever she *feels* like it or else just throw a tantrum. Oh wowwww....she's 15, wow, really mature...and her mother just spoils her like hell and this brat never has to suffer any consequences because, like, she's a teenager and she acts like EVERY teenager her age who possesses so much angst that they can distribute it to all the other 15 year olds in the world and still have plenty left over...but, like, isn't that what ALL teenagers do anyway, so she's being a normal person....yeah, yeah, her life is so rough, RIGHT...

....why, oh why, do the people in the little hick town our restaurant is located in feel like they are the most high-class, superior people on the earth? They are rednecks and hicks who do nothing all day but gossip about other people...wow, what class...

....what supplies do I need to organize for work tommorow?

....the allergies on my hands are getting worse due to the weather change in the hick town we're working in....cannot go a day without itching and scratching like crazy which is a real disruption while trying to wrap orders...

....when will I get sick because I'm most likely to become ill soon...

....when will things get better in my family's life?

....will my sister ever sign up for classes and be able to pass them with at least a C so she can at least get an Associate's Degree?

....when will we get the money and time to get my mother's eye fixed?

....why can't my mom just lighten up and not get stressed out so much? It's bad for her health but she never listens to me or my sister...

....why is it whenever I try to get started on writing a manga story, something goes wrong such as, oh, my computer breaking and now having to use my sister's and living in fear of destroying my sister's computer...

....I wish I could fly away somewhere far away...

....how I should shut-up now since people think I'm complaining for no reason...