[IcyMourdor]

About seven or eight years ago, I was looking up some things about medieval days. I came across the name of Mourdor. Pronunciation is similiar to the famous land of LOTR. I learned that it was Greek (I may be wrong about this, but honestly, I don't care) and it had two meanings.

1. Dark Knight: It was a simple way of looking at it. A knight who had evil tendancies, but was still loyal to the cause he/she fought for.

I thought it was cool. My friend and I were writing a simple story for fun and that was the name of my character. I am using that name still to this day. My alter-ego if you will. However, I found that there was a more direct translation to it that holds more true to me.

2. Knight of Mourning: Simple when you think of the spelling of it. A knight who fights for the memory of a lost loved one or kingdom.

As of last Tuesday, I found out that someone real close and dear to me has passed away. Death was something I never had to deal with growing up. I just turned twenty less than a month ago and this is the first that I have ever dealt with death close to me. I didn't take it well. I didn't even log on to the forums for a while, which it completely unlike me to not even look here at least once a day.

After this past week, I learned my own ways of dealing with the death of a loved one. This is what kinda sparked my curiousity.

Have you had a major death that you mourned over?
Were you young when it happened?
How did you understand and deal with what happened?

One of the things I have learned from my gf is that I need to be more open with the true feelings that I have. Thus, the reason I made this thread. This forum and site has been a safe haven for a bunch of us with serious problems. It hasn't changed for the 3 1/2 years that I have been a member here.