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its 12:43 EST. i am supposed to be getting rest.. but.. instead i drank two cappucinos... and now i'm wired.. but tired. yeah. so i'm enjoying my two new t shirts.. 'the killers' and a new NIN shirt.. word motha fatha. yeah. yesterday was really super shit tastic though. i was up all night. my 12 year old sister was pretending she was 20.. talking to a 23 year old guy.. talking about F-ing him and sucking him off... and my mother has no control over her so i had to deal with it... wow.. started off the day really shitty... then.. this 'girl' i saw last weekend or whenever was supposedly 'really into me'.. so we were to hang out on tuesday there... and well.. i show up and her 'friend' and her little brother were there... shit. so have a shitty day at the park w/ those three.. then come home to talk to her about what was up... come to find out she 'kindof' likes me but is in love with someone else... so. just when i was ready to try a new 'relationship' i got fucked out of it cause of some stupid shit... was less than happy... i was thinking of calling my old 'friends' and gettin high... did i? .. no. i am much stronger than that.. the 23rd i celebrated 4 months of being clean from weed n shit. so i wasnt gonna go back to that over one shitty day. so i didnt. but i didnt even drink either. and anyone who knows me a little.. thats how i deal with my problems... but i didnt even sink back to that. i just stuck it out. and got better by thinking, and figuring out what was really best. so yeah. today was a decent day.. watched the movie closer... really fucked up.. but jude law did a great job in it. and natalie portman was hot. werd.
aubrey. i know exactly what you are goin through.. and i went through it personally.. you handled it better than i did. the kid was one of my best friends and he knew full well waht i thought and how much i still 'loved' that girl... i didnt walk away.. i beat the living shit out of him. well not as bad as i could have.. but then i left him out of my life for 3 months or so.. or somethign like that.. i'm too tired to remember the details.. but needless to say without the story. i feel your pain. keep strong. werd. peace
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