The last time you...
...cried?
I am not sure... maybe about a month ago
...smiled?
im sure i smiled today, but i dont remember... I think i smiled more yestarday... no wait now i remember...yes it was today...
...told a lie?
i try not to lie... i try to get through life with as little lying as possible... it is my belief the less you lie the less you will have to to get out of weird situations and vice versa... am i dodging this question? yes... i am sure i have told a white lie within the past couple days
...had a fight?
physical fight? its been a long time... however i argue with people of course... i think i had a small argument with a friend the other day...
...read a book/magazine?
i was reading gamepro the other day
...watched a movie?
today... u can borrow movies for free from the library which i pretty much live right behind the parking lot too,,, can see it from my windows... i digress... the movie was called "A Simple Plan" ... it had Billy Bob Thornton in it who is most noteworthy because of his brilliant performance in my opinion
...went shopping?
i bought some cheap old records at the store yestarday... mostly for spinning and sampling for hip hop beats
...wrote a letter (emails count too!)?
a couple weeks ago... think i was saying hi to miss fantasytiger
...had a nap?
this evening... i feel asleep sitting up for about an hour...
...took a shower/bath?
lol...last month maybe? j/k! calm down! i took one this afternoon
...forgot an appointment?
im sure i must have forgotten a doctors appointment this month already
i am bad with that...
...fell in love?
hey now... that is personal... heh...
...picked up a pencil to draw?
quite a while ago but i pick up pens n markers to do so all the time like the other day
...ate anything you don't like?
sometimes... when ur a bachelor living on your own n you are too lazy to cook much... u eat what u see is the easiest to make... microwaves are your friend... although this has caused me to like a lot of different foods that some ppl would consider eh... know what i mean? so i dont know when the last time this happened was
...had a dream about yourself?
aren't all of your dreams about ourselves in a way? in which case I would have to say last night, even though I don't remember it
...jumped?
ok this question is unclear... do u mean jumped as in left the ground and landed or do you mean got jumped as in mugged or burglarized while walking along? i can't answer this question I am too confused now...
...had a good laugh?
today... this kinda goes with the smiling thing... my friend bza cracks me up... he's the mang
...made a mistake you still regret?
that's hard to answer since its quite possible that we all make mistakes we will regret later but don't know it was a mistake until that happens... so who knows? was it a mistake to give that new kitten away that i could have kept today? probably not because i don't really have room for a second cant and even though its normal i cant bare to see my original baby Belle the cat go thru mental anguish during the adjustment period. But hey... who knows... blah blah blah........
but on more real matters... i regret having not followed thru on a lot of the things i have tried to pick up as temporary careers in the past, such as real estate... but ultimately it has made me realize how important this music produciton thing is to me along with helping my brother with his business.... all regrets i have in life usually have silver linings... you learn from things
...took an important decision?
this past weekend... i decided certain things were more important in my life than weed... one of them being my sanity... another one being a special person who couldnt be more happy if i were to stay off the stuff as much as possible...
...felt proud of yourself?
This past weekend... too make a long story short... i battled some inner demons and the battlefield was indeed my very own exhausted mind from all the war going on in there... but my will power and thirst for life and my faith prevailed... i was down to the wire... my threshold for mental anguish was on its last thread and that thread was no stronger than a dead hair... believe it... i triumphed against almost impossible odds...yes i am proud of myself brothers and sisters... depression did not creep back into my life because of it. i stopped the turning of the downward spiral dead in its tracks.... ok so i didnt put that very simply... heh
...lost anything important?
I have lost parts of my sanity in recent months, but i have gained most of it back... along with wisdom in other ways so i am generally stronger anyways...
...wanted to run away from something?
last weekend... i ran awy from my apartment... negative vibes had built up and my shields were not working... had to go outside to spiritual align myself with the air and not the land lines for a moment
...kept a secret?
almost all secrets i keep are ones that ppl confide in me... they go into a special vault where they are safe... the code to this vault is impossible to crack so dont even try
...got offended?
just now... by this quesiton...heh j/k... i dunno maybe today when my dad was yellin at me about how he did not like my cat LMAO...silliness... oh wait that was the last argument i had...hmmm.... i stick up for my cat... she is one of my best friends... lol
...played videogames?
today.... San Andreas b'itch!
...dumped your girl/boyfriend?
the one time i dumped somebody instead of the other way around... lol... was about 2 years ago maybe...no more like a year and a half...
i meant to break up with a couple other girls as well but both times that happened they beat me to it... heh... somehow the phrase "wel fine i was gonna dump you anyways" doesnt really come to mind when that happens... heh... life is a comedy when you look back... even if it was hard at the time
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..sang a song?
I sing constantly all day long... how do you think i maintain this incredible voice of mine?
...took a vacation?
my life is a constant vacation from the normal everyday boring life of others even though i am not doing anything much more exciting half the time... its just that i enjoy myself and whats cool about me a lot... i have strange and unique ways of pursuing my dreams... i am complex...
...got scared?
last weekend... had a bit of an anxiety attack... yay!
...visited a friend?
teusday... visited my long time buddy ian... me n that brother go way back
...lost control?
last weekend... ok so are u getting that i had a bad weekend yet? LMAO... lets just leave it at that... i am fine now, though... dont worry about me friends
...devoured chocolate?
a week or so ago
...felt so ashamed you wanted to hide?
these are not questions that help you get on with your life you know that? again... last weekend... hehehehehe
...bought anything you like?
i bought a nice Eggs Benedict at bickfords the other day... i dont know if i like the records i bought yet because i have not yet had a chance to listen to them...
...cheated on somebody?
never did... would kinda be bad karma i would imagine...duh
...thought about your future and made plans?
today... although the plans are a little vague still
...got attacked by a monster?
if my psyche were a monster... i would have to say... yes you guessed it... last weekend
...forgot to water plants?
years ago... i havnt had plants around in ages... why would i in a bachelors apartment... what am i a fruitcake? lol.... actually might be good for the air in here... hmmm...
...felt deceived?
i feel decieved by the system all the time... today even
...remained passive in front of events?
i am usually laid back enough to chill out thru anything even though my mind is constantly racing inside
...studied?
for a class? its been a long whiel.... for my own personal knowledge? possibly yestarday
...took a walk?
the other day.... i need to get out agian tommorrow... working from home does tend to not help you remember that sorta thing
...sunbathed?
ages ago........year n years....heh
...pissed in your pants (childhood memories count!)?
does it count if i didnt pinch off properly n i got s few droplets in there like what happned this morning?
...listened to bad music?
i dont listen to bad music.... well not on purpose... lets see... i had to hear a 50 cent song the other day... it was awful.
...visited a museum?
my apartment is a museum of the disorder in my life since i moved in here... so i would have to say today
...wanted to be anybody else?
again... last weekend... everything went down last weekend...lol
...created anything with your own hands?
i write lyrics with them and play guitar so i guess today
...expressed a biased opinion?
today probably... the key though... is that i knew it was biased...
...received a gift?
i recieve the gift of friendship on a regular basis...
if u want me to be materialistic then i would have to say its been a while...
...kicked a ball?
damn and i love soccer too, but its still been a couple months or more... damn winter time...
...yawned?
iam yawning right now at the mere mention of it... dont feel bad though... i yawn all the time...
...admitted your limits?
dont make me say it again!... last weekend ok!
...baked a cake?
hah... i don't think i've ever done that
...told anybody you love them?
i told my mommy i loved her like today or yestarday
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