[Redpyramidhead]

Faile... you are wayyy too hard on yourself. MOst importantly, though- and I think you realize it- is that you must indluge in your talents and creativiy for yourself and not pursue them in the hope of proving an ex-gf wrong. It sounds to me like she did not truly know you from what I have gathered from past posts. If somebody cannot relate to you it is likely they will not take interest in your talents. The thing she said, if I remember correctly, about your musicianship is probably a post SHE should be making in this thread and not you. Something she said and crossed the line and can't take back. Even if you were to prove her wrong, she still couldnt take it back. Most likely she is not going to and doesnt even know the true damage she has done with her comment. She does not sound like somebody of good enough character to dwell on it for your sake. You are A GREAT GUY. I can tell from your posts that you have a good vibe about you and somebody who is as enthusiastic on a deep level as you about your talents should not be be wasting them on proving somebody else wrong. DO YOUR MUSIC FOR YOURSELF. That is something I have had to come to grips wiht as a mucisian. Your life will start to feel so much more ful in that aspect. I am not saying it is easy, but try man. I lok forward to hearing some of that music of yours someday. Any fellow fan of Smashing Pumpkins is a friend of mine. PEACE

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