[Faile]

Oh I've made many mistakes in my time. Most can be put down to allowing myself to exist within a relationship where my girlfriend liked to kick and punch me, but a bigger mistake now is feeling lost and lonely now she has gone. I allowed myself to be controlled by somebody and that is never good. Allowing myself to now be beloved of self destruction (again, so old...) is a problem. This mess we're in.
And my final mistake is to brood and burn with a fire and passion for all the wrong reasons. I'm seeking creativity to use it as a weapon and show her that I'm not all the things she calls me, even though it means slipping back in to old games. Self obsessed, self absorbed, boring, dull, fat me. I'm losing a lot of my better tricks. Not liking or being happy with who I am is a mistake too and yet that is vanity too on my part. Flawed, flawed, floored.