Hmmm... I always talk to much when it's not needed, and with the wrong persons. But worse than that is the fact I don't let an argument end when it's time to let go. I keep on saying things I shouldn't say, and every thing I say is worse than the previous one. Sometimes I can even be rational and think "Wow, how could I say that! I could never forgive anybody for saying it!" or "God, that was really too much!"
The more I do and say, the more I need to keep on doing and saying till I see the other person looks sort of destroyed. So.. I end crossing the line several times even during the same episode. Harry told me, trying to be funny when talking about my cruelty during our arguments, that I need an exorcist... When I really think I crossed the "point of no return" I start wondering why I'm so evil and childish and I start asking deities to give me another chance
I feel more than guilty and ashamed. But you know how these things go. Next time is the same. Experiences don't last sometimes, or they just don't count enough. I don't know. Alas, what's life without many "adventures" to spice it up?
As for forgiving the other person.... no. When somebody really crosses the line, I'm not able to forgive. I can't or it takes me a very long time. It's like I'm looking for vengeance. Odd because I'm the first one to always want and ask to be forgiven when it's my turn...