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Redpyramidhead · Nov 6th, 2004, 02:09 AM

I said those things you underlined in a completely UNsarcastic tone. I was being very serious and admittedly angry at people's general concenses that there is a "normal state" of mind or one specific "reality" i should be conforming to. I am somebody who has lived a life having a hard time maintaining these "normal" states causing great depression in my life. My tourette's syndrome, depression, and obsessive compulsive disorder (yes everybody I am quite gifted with alternate perceptions of reality by these so called "disorders") have caused me to act in ways other people refused to understand and made me feel bad for not only on purpose, but actually mostly be default because of the way society works. The day I realized it was ok to think differently (which didnt happen in a day, it happend over years of self revelations,) I was able to overcome the clinical depression caused by feeling bad about my differences. Over the years I have gorwn to be more proud of the unique person I am.

No this does not have anything directly to do with the use of drugs, except that maybe now you can understand why some people have less of their undying decotion invested in this "normal state" or "reality" that keeps coming up in this discussion.

Please, I do not wish to fight with you Meryl. You are a good friend. I think you would find, upon jacking into my full thoughts on the subject, we actually think much more similar on the matter than you believe.

PEACE

_RED_ stuff

Nov 6th, 2004, 02:09 AM	#54
Redpyramidhead pazparacolombia Joined: Sep 2002 Location: Restless dreams... Age: 45 Posts: 2,002	I said those things you underlined in a completely UNsarcastic tone. I was being very serious and admittedly angry at people's general concenses that there is a "normal state" of mind or one specific "reality" i should be conforming to. I am somebody who has lived a life having a hard time maintaining these "normal" states causing great depression in my life. My tourette's syndrome, depression, and obsessive compulsive disorder (yes everybody I am quite gifted with alternate perceptions of reality by these so called "disorders") have caused me to act in ways other people refused to understand and made me feel bad for not only on purpose, but actually mostly be default because of the way society works. The day I realized it was ok to think differently (which didnt happen in a day, it happend over years of self revelations,) I was able to overcome the clinical depression caused by feeling bad about my differences. Over the years I have gorwn to be more proud of the unique person I am. No this does not have anything directly to do with the use of drugs, except that maybe now you can understand why some people have less of their undying decotion invested in this "normal state" or "reality" that keeps coming up in this discussion. Please, I do not wish to fight with you Meryl. You are a good friend. I think you would find, upon jacking into my full thoughts on the subject, we actually think much more similar on the matter than you believe. PEACE _RED_ stuff __________________ "..loathsome laughing, mixed with such a cry as no man has heard save for in the phlegathon of unrelatable nightmares; a cry wherein reverberated the horror and anguish of a haunted lifetime packed into one atrocious moment..."