[Chara]

What do you think happens when you die? You go to heaven? An afterlife of some sort? Just dream for eternity? As far as I concerned, nothing happens, which scares the crap out of me.

A few days ago on a day time chat show, they had a guest who died, he was dead for 4 minutes and then doctors managed to bring him back to life. They asked him the golden question. "See anything when you were dead? Bright light? Hellfire? A meadow?" His answer, which he grimly gave was, "nothing, not a dream, its like being knocked out except you don't have a slightly odd dream, When I woke up it was like nothing had happened, there's nothing." This guy has been severly depressed ever since the incident, you may ask why, becuase he's alive again. He's depressed becuase he knows from first hand experience that when we choke it, that's it, there is nothing.

I've been thinking about this a lot at night, when I die what's gonna happen? Nothing, at first I thought that ok there's no afterlife, I've never really followed the belief that there is an afterlife, that defies the purpose of death. But I always thought that maybe it would be like going unconciouse, you'd just dream for eternity, which I was happy with. Well you don't, you need a mind to dream, when you die you rot away, so does your head and everything in it, so when you croak, that's it. Game over, nothing. That scares me so much I can't describe it, thinking that this is what I have and that's it. I could get hit by a bus tonight and that's it, i've wasted my life in school when I could have been living a life I wanted. I've spent days watching tv becuase i've thought "there's always tommorrow" to do something. Im not saying im "born again" and going to live everyday to its fullest, becuase I know I can't, that's just not me. I just know that when I die, i've had it.

Your thoughts?