I dunno Red, cuz I read it all before I posted that, AND again just now. What I figured was that you obviously are/were dwelling on it enough for you to seek out the advice of others, but I guess I was wrong.
So, I'm sorry.
Actually no, I'm really not sorry! I gave my two cents, and that's that!
But like you mentioned, Just know that we all care about you enough to try and help you out!