[Redpyramidhead]

I'm feeling like I need to set a bunch of things in my life into motion starting right now. After coming back from my trip in which I went to a far away place and saw all the potential of what it is like to set ones dreams in motion and what benefits may come at the end of the tunnel, I have realized to get there again, and this time with newfound strength (not only physically but mentally,) I must bite the bullets life has dealt me as sour and painful as they are and just do it all. Step by step. It's taken me so long to get to this point, but I am so sick and tired of the same old bullshit of complete and utter desperate stagnance that my life so embodies much of the time, I am willing to take all of that now (no matter how much comfort it has given me in the past because I now knowit was false comfort more than ever) and cast it into the abyss from whence it came! Now, if only people can help me by staying on this path with their kind words. Whatever the case may be, I must not give up. Not in a general sense. Not anymore.

And that, my friends is what I am thinking right now. You asked and you got it. You welcomed me to these boards way back and you got me. Now deal with what you got.

_RED_ stuff