[Faile]

so, it's all very obtuse
because it's all like, like, i don't know
so, like, i started thinking
that everything i operate on
is based on what i believe god was telling me to do
god could be my intuition or whatever
but i always assume
i always assume that the voice i hear is the voice of god
then i started thinking
what if i'm insane
so i'm operating on the premise
that i'm hearing the voice of god
or what i perceive to be god speaking to me
or through me
but maybe i'm completly in...
so all my...
demagoguery in my life about me thinking that my life has importance
my, my..
thinking that my life has importance
my, my, my thought of it
and the fact that i believe that i'm following my intuition
which in and of itself may be completely false
so then i started freaking out thinking...
of itself may be completely false
and again this creature that believes that he's acting upon
heavenly intuition, but meanwhile he's totally rampant
and i started thinking maybe this is the cause
of all the negativity against...
and i started thinking maybe this is the cause
of all the negativity against...
and i started thinking maybe this is the cause
of all the negativity against...

So beats the final coda


- Glass and the Ghost Children - Smashing Pumpkins

Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
- Zero - Smashing Pumpkins


And Finally the song i'm listening to now in all its glory :

I'm going crazy
I'm going crazy
I don't want feelings
Your feelings

I have gone crazy
Mother****in' crazy
I have gone

- I'm Going Crazy - Smashing Pumpkins


(yes . i do like the smashing pumpkins)