[REChick14]

Well many things are on my mind at the moment.. Lately I feel like im not a good enough person. I try to my best to be a person everyone enjoys being around. Im used to being happy most of the time. It made me happy to put someone else in a better mood. Im not like my sisters who had boyfriends at an early age. Im not used to guys coming up to me. Im known as the friend type I guess you could say. I used to not mind it so much. I was fine with being single. I thought I finally found someone who could love me and that made me feel in a way that I cant even put into words. I gave everything I had to be caring and supportive but I guess it wasnt enough. It hurts to find out that the person you loved, doesnt have the same feelings back. It hurts to go from saying I love you to this person then go straight to being just friends. It hurts to not being able to confide with my own sisters about this since I've hid this from my family. It hurts going to bed every night and crying till I fall asleep. It hurts trying to make myself hate him but I cant. I constantly ask myself what I did wrong. I loved him and still do. I still wait for the day that I know will never come when he wants to be with me again. I know I have to move on but its hard. Im just trying to go day by day